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Wednesday 22 May 2002
food, food, food

i think i'm getting this unhealthy thing for food.. it's all i think about now (of course, whilst thinking about Regan). but i'm always thinking of my next meal which i'll eat 30 mins later.. it's non stop and while i don't mind about putting on a few pounds, i'm wondering what's changed my appetite?
of course like i've mentioned before, i think it's linked to missing Regan so much. i remember saying to him that when he's gone, i was going to eat myself stupid.. maybe this is it?

i'm slowly getting back to what's "normal" for me. tonight i went in the kitchen and made chocolate pudding for my mum, sis and me (see, MORE food!) and we all sat down and loved it. i still feel the need to be on the computer all the time, yet i'm grumpy when i am. tonight i was doing okay, talking to Regan and then i got all pouty for no reason (i'm blaming pms). i don't like that people have to talk to an ever-mood-changing tracey. it sucks.