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Friday 12 July 2002
alone

i really feel alone.. although i don't think that's the right word to describe it.
i don't feel like making contact with anyone, or making the effort to do things. i don't know what it is. i'm really moody, really sensitive at times and always always tired. plus i've still got the flu and it's probably why i'm so 'not myself'. i feel like crying, and i do cry. the little things can set me off, but i'm happy at the same time. ugh, i really hate this. i just want to be like i was before, but i don't know what that is or whether there was a 'before' this. i think i'm the same, but i'm not.

i was staring at my lomo for a while just then and i wanted to do something different with it. so i thought of maybe sending it to a handful of my friends overseas, and getting them to take a bunch of lomo's themselves and then send it on or back to me again. a photolog of sorts.
anyhow, because someone on there is really peeing me off (see the above paragraph, re: sensitivity), i'll probably just email invite people i want to participate.

i'm not psycho. i swear.
i think it's withdrawals.


still.

i've been having dreams about being pregnant, so maybe something's on it's way?
no not a child.. but something new?

 

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