previous entry - next entry
Sunday 25 June
2006
alright now
so it's been a few days since my grandmother passed away. it's given me some time to think why i'm so upset - i didn't really know her all that well, she lived in a different country and spoke a different language. i think what's most upsetting is of the situation my mother and my grandmother were in, and how that relates between Regan's mother, Regan and any future grandkids we might have too. i feel so guilty to have that 'automatic' distance between our families. i don't know what we're going to do other than make yearly trips back to/from the states. either way, someone misses out.
when we were back in KL in january, i looked into my grandmother's eyes and saw my mother. i never really saw that before when i visited my grandmother as a kid, and i feel blessed that i had the opportunity as a woman to see that. it might sound strange, but she didn't have to say anything to me (and couldn't) to have an effect on me. looking back on it, i'm thankful i had as least that much between us.
when anyone passes away you start to think about your life and your family (at least i do). for me, i focus more on what's important in my life and what i NEED to do. i hope this 'need' doesn't go away.
Replies: messages (5)
|
Your new page format is noticeably slower to load (even on an ADSL line). Not crazy about the new texts being used either.
How are we going to get you back to photography again? . . . :-)
Posted by Hilton
@ 26 june 2006 09:45
PM AEST
|
|
My husband's family is over 1,000 miles away. And it's something I think about if we were to have kids. There's no way to solve the issue of distance until they invent teleportation. Seriously, it's a tough situation. For everyone. Condolences on your loss.
Posted by Alyse
@ 28 june 2006 09:50
AM AEST
|
|
Im so sorry Tracey.
Love the new look.
Posted by amanda
@ 28 june 2006 09:32
PM AEST
|
|
my dad died when I was 15. it has been almost two years...but doesn't seem like it
make sure your mom's alright
Posted by katherine
@ 29 june 2006 03:08
AM AEST
|
|
As you know, we're moving back to the USA so my parents can have a turn with the new baby. It's going to be a nightmare on the flights with a one-year-old. But it looks like we'll just be moving back and forth and I'm definitely NOT looking forward to it. Plus, it'll be so expensive the more kids we have!! Christ. Anyway, I always keep worrying too about what if something happens to my mom or dad, or both... what am I going to do then??? I hope you all can work something out.
By the way, I love the new website! I especially like the little bird at the bottom!
Posted by Jamieanne
@ 29 june 2006 07:58
PM AEST
|
|
