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in therapy

Posted on August 14th, 2012 by Tracey

yesterday was my first therapy appointment. not Jovie’s, not Jasper’s, mine – and that feels weird to say.

coming from a woman who maybe gets her hair cut every 7 months (i’m currently sporting some major horse hair here – neighhhh), doing something for myself is a bit foreign. sure, every now and then mum takes the kids and i stay at home to clean or blog or run errands, but that’s not ‘me time’ is it?

but i did have a good session yesterday and while i won’t go into details, i do think the psychologist and i will work well together. an interesting thing that did come up was the concept of habits, and how we fall into them and don’t realise what’s going on until it turns into an issue.

figuring out where we’ve let ourselves down, and why, can be a hard thing to do. it’s not often you get that kind of clarity or want to seek out a solution for it. but i’m happy to get a little messy, to come out a little cleaner.

image source is this awesome print

the truth is raw

Posted on August 6th, 2012 by Tracey

I wasn’t sure what was going to be harder to ask for – a pap smear or a referral to see a psychologist – but today was the day I would find out.

Both things were due, but admitting that I needed to talk to a professional was tough. I’ve always tried to be steady and calm, especially everything that’s happened with Jovie in the last year or so. I always thought that things will and do sort themselves out, and I still believe that. But I also think that being brave is also admitting that you’re not coping.

Turns out the pap smear was a cake walk.

And I’ll start unravelling and putting back my head next Monday at 3.

edited to add – this article came at the right time!