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just got off the phone with Regan – maybe it was my tiredness but i really cracked tonight, i miss him so much and i’m pretty emotional when i’m sleepy – so i broke down. things are good now though, he always talks me through it and i feel alot better. i know that we can’t speed up time and get him here. it just really hurts to be away from him. i know i shouldn’t be so selfish, when he gets here – we’ll be together for the rest of our lives. so i should try to deal with it a bit better.<\/p>\n

mum, dad, hayley and i went to the gardens to check out the lawns again. a really beautiful day (pics here<\/a>) and we’re trying to find a couple of area we both agree on and then Regan and i will make the decision. we’re going to check out the restaurant where we want the reception next week too.<\/p>\n

had the chance to take my holga out (which i hadn’t done in a long time). kept forgetting to adjust the aperture, grrrrr. also been listening to alot of waikiki<\/a>. looking forward to their first album which will be released this week. there’s an instore in the city that i might catch.. but probably not.
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i’m afraid to check that guestbook again cause i really don’t want to find out how many other girls have websites like that. i’m considering closing it altogether really. i mean, i’ve already had to take offline alot of my cliques cause of space constraints.. hmmm<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"