so cut back to 3-4 months ago, to a time where i was working more than 12 hours a day. a self imposed exile to my office just so i could make someone else happy. did it work? yes and no. they were happy, the work was complete – but then it came to a point where we all expected more, just because it magically happend the last time. <\/p>\n
not a great place to be when you’re that magical fairy. <\/p>\n
during the last week or so, i really looked back at all this craziness and asked myself – what are you doing?<\/strong> <\/p>\n why do you do these things to yourself? what are you trying to prove? <\/p>\n i suffer from the disease to please – and while that is fine in concentrated areas of your life, it’s no way to live <\/em>your life. <\/p>\n last night, for the first time in YEARS, i didn’t go up to my office (in our spare bedroom). i came and sat on the couch, opened a book and just sat. Regan had to do a double take, usually once the kids are in bed, i’m busy working on everything but myself. i do love keeping up my blogging, but it doesn’t take all night anymore. i’m up all night trying to find the meaning of life, when life is passing me by. <\/p>\n it felt like a revelation, to just sit<\/em>. it felt like a revolution and i feel like the weight’s been lifted off my shoulders for the first time in ages. <\/p>\n why spend 20 hours doing something that’s not giving me 20 hours of happiness in return? 20 hours a week, 52 weeks in a year – that’s alot of time wasted…. and i don’t want waste any more time if i can help it. so i’m putting the end to a ridiculous schedule of my ‘free time’ to just be free<\/strong>. <\/p>\n is there anything in your life that you can or would like to give up? <\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" so cut back to 3-4 months ago, to a time where i was working more than 12 hours a day. a self imposed exile to my office just so i could make someone else happy. did it work? yes and no. they were happy, the work was complete – but then it came to a […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2750","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-fire-starter-sessions"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2750","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2750"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2750\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2752,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2750\/revisions\/2752"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2750"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2750"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2750"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}