and i’m not sure how that makes me feel. i think this year it’s mostly about time passing me by. for me, this time of the year reminds me of what was happening this time last year*, and that makes me .. well .. sad. i can’t help it. but, as part of how i deal – i’ll forget about the sad things and concentrate on just getting by today. <\/p>\n
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my parents bought me a photo printer (so i’ll be printing photos like mad), my dad bought me a hat (which you’ll probably see alot, i’m such a dork) and i bought myself a new flat screen monitor since my brother had to take away the one i was using. tommorrow i’ll be picking up my own birthday cup cakes since my family don’t eat cake anymore and i’ll be eating my own pizza meal since they don’t like pizza aswell. more for tracey i guess!<\/p>\n
it’s good there’s no hoop-la this year. hoop-la means family asking me where Regan is and why he isn’t here yet – something i don’t have an answer for really. i didn’t know a year could go by so fast, and still crush your insides. <\/p>\n
so i’m getting depressing again! time to hit the sack and wake up early again for work… i’m going to be twenty two today. i’m still not sure how it makes me feel
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want to know something sad and kinda sick? i’m actually waiting to see how many of my offline friends remember it’s my birthday… i haven’t talked to any of them in a couple of weeks. i think sometimes i take delight in the fact i’m so low on the radar that i come last, because i want other people to be first. i think one day it’s just going to be me and Regan sitting in some cave in italy (like we always say). man, i’m depressing tonight! bedbedbed cause i really am OK, just tired. <\/p>\n
* Regan was in Sydney for my birthday last year, hence the crazy psycho tone of this entry, haha.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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