define('DISABLE_WP_CRON', true);{"id":4111,"date":"2012-03-15T12:17:18","date_gmt":"2012-03-15T02:17:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/?p=4111"},"modified":"2012-03-15T12:18:43","modified_gmt":"2012-03-15T02:18:43","slug":"scatterbrain","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/4111\/","title":{"rendered":"scatterbrain"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>this is how my brain feels lately &#8211; <\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/03\/idea-decision.gif\" alt=\"\" title=\"idea-decision\" width=\"480\" height=\"312\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-4112\" srcset=\"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/03\/idea-decision.gif 480w, http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/03\/idea-decision-300x195.gif 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 480px) 100vw, 480px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>i get an idea, one that i love, then i dwell on it for anywhere between a minute or 5 years. and within that time frame, my brain and i go round and round in circles trying to make a decision. if ever i make a decision, that is. <\/p>\n<p>i can&#8217;t shake the feeling that &#8220;i can&#8217;t do this&#8221; or &#8220;you&#8217;ll never succeed&#8221;. <\/p>\n<p>and i desperately want to focus on one thing (other than my kids and family of course), that i can be proud of. i feel like i have too many interests sometimes, not that it&#8217;s a bad thing but i know i&#8217;m being pulled in more directions than i&#8217;d like. want to know how many blogs i really run? you don&#8217;t, it&#8217;s too crazy to blog about. <\/p>\n<p>i&#8217;ll be 31 next month, and i feel like 2012 is a year to make a leap of faith. dedicate the next decade to personal growth, success and back to financial stability. <\/p>\n<p>oh, how i want to be stable. i don&#8217;t want that badly drawn picture above to resemble my 30&#8217;s. i know i wrote about making a start, a few blog posts down, but here i still am &#8211; one foot out the door, the other firmly planted inside. <\/p>\n<p>where&#8217;s my confidence? <strong>where do you find the balls to say YES I DO THIS? where your pointer points? and then what do you do to keep it going?<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>this is how my brain feels lately &#8211; i get an idea, one that i love, then i dwell on it for anywhere between a minute or 5 years. and within that time frame, my brain and i go round and round in circles trying to make a decision. if ever i make a decision, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4111","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-anything-everything"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4111","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4111"}],"version-history":[{"count":11,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4111\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4122,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4111\/revisions\/4122"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4111"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4111"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sh1ft.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4111"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}