just got off the phone with Regan – maybe it was my tiredness but i really cracked tonight, i miss him so much and i’m pretty emotional when i’m sleepy – so i broke down. things are good now though, he always talks me through it and i feel alot better. i know that we can’t speed up time and get him here. it just really hurts to be away from him. i know i shouldn’t be so selfish, when he gets here – we’ll be together for the rest of our lives. so i should try to deal with it a bit better.
mum, dad, hayley and i went to the gardens to check out the lawns again. a really beautiful day (pics here) and we’re trying to find a couple of area we both agree on and then Regan and i will make the decision. we’re going to check out the restaurant where we want the reception next week too.
had the chance to take my holga out (which i hadn’t done in a long time). kept forgetting to adjust the aperture, grrrrr. also been listening to alot of waikiki. looking forward to their first album which will be released this week. there’s an instore in the city that i might catch.. but probably not.
i’m afraid to check that guestbook again cause i really don’t want to find out how many other girls have websites like that. i’m considering closing it altogether really. i mean, i’ve already had to take offline alot of my cliques cause of space constraints.. hmmm
Lindsey •