Even though I’ve been off-work for 6 months now, it’s hard to actually make that leap away from a title I held for all those years. Letting that part of my life go is scary and exciting, but so is starting the rest of my life.
It’s already the end of January 2012, 1 month gone already and I feel that I’m making progress slowly.
Decision on work – made.
Commit to a healthier, cleaner lifestyle – done.
Kids are healthy & happy. Regan is awesome.
But there’s always going to be that part of me that is searching for something, and I think that’s the next stage of my life now. While I’m running Jovie over to her next appointment, picking up Jasper from school or pacing the aisles at Woolies for goodness knows what – there is something inside of me that says ‘keep going, you’re almost there’. (And I don’t mean the salsa aisle).
In my 20′s, I studied, had a career, got married and had 2 kids. I’m now in my 30′s and a stay-at-home mum. It’s all I ever wanted – to be home and taking care of my kids and so grateful for that.
But I don’t know whether that will ever satisfy the creative side of me. Do you ever find yourself saying ‘So what’s next?’ and then waiting for an answer? It’s sort of like not using one of your arms – you know it’s there but you don’t know what to use it for. Your other arm is busy, it’s doing great and you’re getting things done but for some reason you can’t pick up the other one.
I love finding inspirational quotes and cheering people on that are moving forward with their creative pursuits. But I think I’ve lost myself and forgotten how important it was/is to me to, to actually act upon opportunity or to make my own mark.
It’s so easy to just lump yourself into a routine and before you know it, years have passed and that side of your brain/heart/mind has gotten fat with neglect. I need to shake it up and get that fire going again…
How do you move forward?
Do you have dreams you’ve never acted upon? Have an arm you don’t use too?
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