where does time go? when you want it to go fast, it doesn’t. when you want it to go slow, it speeds up. funny huh?

i feel like i haven’t done much of anything the past couple months, when in fact i’ve never been busier. everyday i’m doing something for either the wedding or searching for an apartment or doing some other crazy thing. at the same time i’m working extra-full time (extra because i start before i need too and tend to stay longer than i’m supposed too. i call it a side effect of working from home)..

i’ve been having mind splitting headaches, pretty much all day but at night they’re the worst. sometimes i think i’m not going to wake up one morning so i’m paranoid about sleeping. they get better when i rest more though, so i think it’s a sleep deprivation thing. i’ll have to teach myself to sleep before 1AM

i feel drained of anything remotely creative aswell. like i can’t take a good photo or design a good layout if my life depended on it. it’s a temporary thing, i think everyone goes through it every now and again but while i’m in it, it’s awkward.

life feels distorted right now and i guess i’ll just have to weather it – it could be worse. smelling the smoke in the air reminds me that i’m luckier than most and should really try to enjoy that now. (one of my new years resolutions and i’m already dropping it). i keep telling myself to just relax, but somehow i never seem too. i’m going to burn out before 22 if i keep going like this

hey, if you’re still reading this – don’t worry so much about me – i’m okay, just needed to vent a little.. seems kinda miniscule to all those people losing their homes over the weekend or the war talk but i’ve learnt that everyone has their worries and that they don’t go away because something more important has happened. it’s life.