planned for a relaxing weekend, but as it always happens, there’s just so much to do, even though it’s not much at all
saturday morning, early start to get a few things for the apartment. we have an open house soon and mum wants me to decorate it like i’m on oprah or something, lol. later on, i went to meet my friends out in parramatta. i hadn’t seen most of them since aisy’s wedding, so it was really cool to hang out with them again. very cool to see little natalie, she’s gotten so big (yet stays so small) and i got to spend a little time with her on my own which was nice. saturday night was girl’s night with my sister, which was cool. Mischa got her hair cut, i finally got my eyebrows done and Hayley told me about her plans to travel some more..
sunday, mothers day, was another early one. went and got the groceries before the crack of dawn so i had the rest of the day free. we had plans to see a movie with mum, but Hayley read the schedule wrong and we got there too late for the morning session, but way too early for the lunch one. we ended up in the food court, having a good old laugh which was better than any movie any way 😉 walked around for a bit, buying mum what she wanted for mothers day (not what we thought she wanted)
i think by then, i had really overdone it. things started to get hazy and i couldn’t form a sentence other than ‘i need to sit’. by lunch, i was on the couch at my parents house passed out and having some nasty round ligament pains. i slept for about 3 hours before driving myself home, half in tears because of how uncomfortable it was. the rest of the day was a write off, i didn’t want to move (and couldn’t) so i went to bed at 6pm and didn’t get up until this morning.
things are alot better today, feel like i’m getting a cold though but nothing that i can’t handle. i realise there’s alot of stuff that i’ll experience in the next few months, so things like round ligament pain i need to take in it’s stride. but… it still sucks.
it was getting scary there for a minute (or year), John Mayer.
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for the past few weekends, i’ve somehow eaten or come into contact with gluten or something else that i’m allergic/intolerant to but don’t know of. i think it may have been a moisturiser i’d never used before, or it could of been the 2 squares of chocolate i thought i was safe. those are the only 2 things i touched before it went a bit haywire for me yesterday. i was really looking forward to a full day out. stupid moisturiser bastard.
it’s been hard – as hard as it can get when you’ve got alot of things to do and you’re pregnant and already experiencing weird bodily functions. i’m mostly worried about the effect is has on the baby, if any? i’ll find out, hopefully it’s not so bad for him/her. i also miss feeling ‘safe’ when it comes to food and other things that i touch or put on. i’m alright with avoiding, but i feel like i’m totally losing it whenever i feel myself sliding away.
the effects of a food allergy/intolerance comes on quick for me – usually within 5-10 minutes I will start to feel anxious, very antsy and scattery like there are bugs crawling around inside of me. i’ll start to feel like i need to hurry up whatever i’m doing (even if it’s just sitting there watching tv, i feel like tv needs to be faster). 20 minutes in, I start to get a headache and feel really lightheaded, while still trying to rush around wherever i am. 35 minutes in, the tiredness kicks in and all i just want to do is sit down and go to sleep. luckily, yesterday, my sister was with me so could drive us home otherwise i would of camped out in the most comfortable aisle at woolworths for a few hours.
the rest of the day, i’m exhausted and can’t really focus on anything. the rest of the week, i have a sore throat and my face is inflamed with horrible red patches. (this is why my friends don’t see me, ever. i’m hiding out).
i’ve made the decision that next year after I have the bub and things are settled, i’m going to have the proper test for Coealic Disease. i think it’s important for me to acknowledge that an elimination diet doesn’t work 100% of the time and i need to know what is going on inside me. what i don’t like, is that i’m going to have to go back to eating gluten/wheat/yeast for at least 6 weeks (longer, i think actually?). i don’t think i’ll be able to handle a newborn and going back to foods that i know make me feel like garbage… but i guess i need to look at the rest of my life, rather that put it off and put it off…
