this is how my brain feels lately –
i get an idea, one that i love, then i dwell on it for anywhere between a minute or 5 years. and within that time frame, my brain and i go round and round in circles trying to make a decision. if ever i make a decision, that is.
i can’t shake the feeling that “i can’t do this” or “you’ll never succeed”.
and i desperately want to focus on one thing (other than my kids and family of course), that i can be proud of. i feel like i have too many interests sometimes, not that it’s a bad thing but i know i’m being pulled in more directions than i’d like. want to know how many blogs i really run? you don’t, it’s too crazy to blog about.
i’ll be 31 next month, and i feel like 2012 is a year to make a leap of faith. dedicate the next decade to personal growth, success and back to financial stability.
oh, how i want to be stable. i don’t want that badly drawn picture above to resemble my 30’s. i know i wrote about making a start, a few blog posts down, but here i still am – one foot out the door, the other firmly planted inside.
where’s my confidence? where do you find the balls to say YES I DO THIS? where your pointer points? and then what do you do to keep it going?
let’s just pretend this post is full of self doubt and ramblings about being stressed and tired. i want to move on.
life’s too good to waste another day on waiting for something good to come along. you gotta make your own fun, find our own fortune and make dreams a reality.
but how do you do that? when you feel like you’re stuck in a hole and instead of climbing out, all you want to do is pull a blanket over your head and go back to sleep.
you do one thing at a time. take one simple step towards your goal. you start, today, and don’t look back.
so it’s Monday again, and before i get stuck into the routine (scramble to reply to emails, get some work done, take Jovie to playgroup, do the housework, dinner, at home therapy/play, bed), i’m buzzing from a great weekend!
saturday, Jasper and I headed off to Kids Day Out at the Sydney Showgrounds. to be honest, i thought the ticket price was too high (almost $100 for the 2 of us, which is why I didn’t take Jo) but coming away from it, it was worth that and more. there were tonnes of freebies (balloon artists, icecream, face painting, show bags, jumping castles and heaps of other stuff) but it also gave us the chance to see his (okay, our) favourites perform and then meet them afterwards.
Yo Gabba Gabba has been a part of our household since Jasper was born – and Jovie is currently O-B-S-E-S-S-E-D with them. she’s watching it now. she’ll watch it in the car on the drive to playgroup. it’s such a shame she didn’t get to do this –
i turned into a fangirl, to be honest. it was more exciting to me than it should be LOL
i made a little video of our day so I could show Regan but I thought it was fun enough to share with everyone else
kids day out 2012 from Jasper & Jovie on Vimeo.
sunday, we attended a christening for our of my dear friend’s baby boy – the kid’s first church experience. Jasper couldn’t sit still, and Jovie’s foot got caught in between chairs so Regan and I alternated between pacing outside and sitting to watch the ceremony.
photo by Jasper!
but we got through it, and entered what i like to call heaven – an air conditioned hall with a huge (and delicious buffet). after an amazingly emotional and beautiful speech from bub’s dad, we celebrated with our friends and came away with great memories
