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don’t let it pass you by

Posted on February 27th, 2012 by Tracey

today is Monday. MONDAY. I woke up thinking it was Saturday and I had time to get my weekend-y stuff done, and to hang out with the kids. imagine my surprise when my alarm goes off and it says it’s time to start the week, again.

where did those days go? i know i did get stuff done, but it’s passed me by without tapping me on the shoulder to say HEY YOU’RE FALLING BEHIND!

i fully appreciate that there’s time to step back and retreat, but there’s also times to stand up and do a roundhouse kick to the face of my to-do list… i have new projects i’m working on, and i don’t want to push them aside. i have playgroups to get to, therapy to be done, school drop off’s and tears to stop.

today is Monday, and i’m starting all over again.

in the eye of the storm

Posted on February 19th, 2012 by Tracey

i woke up early this morning, refreshed and wide eyed. the house was still asleep so i quietly sat in the spare room where the sun rises through the curtains. it was just me and the kookaburra’s, the neighbourhood outside was still basking in the morning light.

it’s been a busy week. a few hospital visits (nothing bad or new to report, just a regular check up for Regan and a neurology appointment for Jovie), swimming, playgroups, therapy, cheapie photo shoot for the kids, thunderstorms, blue skies.

the warmth from the morning sun reminded me to stop, even for those few minutes, as if to tell me how far we’ve all come and how far we’ve got to go. i wonder alot about our future, but every day i am very conscious to enjoy the present because before you know it, the week has passed you by and all you’ll have left is (hopefully) memories.

You’re Almost There

Posted on January 31st, 2012 by Tracey

A huge thanks for the words of support on my last blog post 🙂 Even though I’ve been off-work for 6 months now, it’s hard to actually make that leap away from a title I held for all those years. Letting that part of my life go is scary and exciting, but so is starting the rest of my life.

It’s already the end of January 2012, 1 month gone already and I feel that I’m making progress slowly.

Decision on work – made.
Commit to a healthier, cleaner lifestyle – done.
Kids are healthy & happy. Regan is awesome.

But there’s always going to be that part of me that is searching for something, and I think that’s the next stage of my life now. While I’m running Jovie over to her next appointment, picking up Jasper from school or pacing the aisles at Woolies for goodness knows what – there is something inside of me that says ‘keep going, you’re almost there’. (And I don’t mean the salsa aisle).

In my 20’s, I studied, had a career, got married and had 2 kids. I’m now in my 30’s and a stay-at-home mum. It’s all I ever wanted – to be home and taking care of my kids and so grateful for that.

But I don’t know whether that will ever satisfy the creative side of me. Do you ever find yourself saying ‘So what’s next?’ and then waiting for an answer? It’s sort of like not using one of your arms – you know it’s there but you don’t know what to use it for. Your other arm is busy, it’s doing great and you’re getting things done but for some reason you can’t pick up the other one.

I love finding inspirational quotes and cheering people on that are moving forward with their creative pursuits. But I think I’ve lost myself and forgotten how important it was/is to me to, to actually act upon opportunity or to make my own mark.

It’s so easy to just lump yourself into a routine and before you know it, years have passed and that side of your brain/heart/mind has gotten fat with neglect. I need to shake it up and get that fire going again…

How do you move forward?
Do you have dreams you’ve never acted upon? Have an arm you don’t use too?

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