it’s interesting that once you get talking about yourself to a stranger (albeit, a professional), the more you learn about yourself. in my session with the dr, i’m relaying things i already knew about myself but i’m coming away learning something new about why am i how i am. yes, only after 2 sessions.
i feel a bit raw about the weight of our conversations, and maybe next week i will share a bit with you, but until then i’m busily processing what has been said and it’s making me a bit quieter online & off. in between making a video of Jovie for the Rett Syndrome Study and running around the town as usual, i find myself wondering where my mind will be in a month, in 6 months, at this rate.
i’m already peeling away that ‘tough’ outer shell i wear and it’s a bit scary. to be 31, and rediscovering yourself is a GOOD thing though and i feel lucky that i’m on this path now, rather than later.
cute image by ilovedoodle
a little Jovie & mummy time before playgroup this morning – so good to have my camera back and feeling inspired to take some photos!
yesterday was my first therapy appointment. not Jovie’s, not Jasper’s, mine – and that feels weird to say.
coming from a woman who maybe gets her hair cut every 7 months (i’m currently sporting some major horse hair here – neighhhh), doing something for myself is a bit foreign. sure, every now and then mum takes the kids and i stay at home to clean or blog or run errands, but that’s not ‘me time’ is it?
but i did have a good session yesterday and while i won’t go into details, i do think the psychologist and i will work well together. an interesting thing that did come up was the concept of habits, and how we fall into them and don’t realise what’s going on until it turns into an issue.
figuring out where we’ve let ourselves down, and why, can be a hard thing to do. it’s not often you get that kind of clarity or want to seek out a solution for it. but i’m happy to get a little messy, to come out a little cleaner.
image source is this awesome print
