define('DISABLE_WP_CRON', true); _sh1ft.org

newsletter: month two

to my cheeky monkey, Jasper.

i am happyyou’re now 2 months old! this second month has flown by so quickly – in a blink of an eye you’ve grown so much, yet stayed so tiny and new in this world. you’re still such a joy to your father and i, we still can’t believe our complete luck. we love you so much! and we love that you’ll sleep 8 hours overnight! lol.

you’ve gone from having a little bit of hair, to losing all of it on the top of your head, to growing it back again. people were starting to ask us whether we shaved you so you’d grow a mullet on purpose.. but at least you had the same hair as grandpa for a short time there.

you’re a very clever boy, my son! at about 5 weeks old you starting coo-ing and babbling, which delighted grandma coreen. you’ve now graduated to full ‘conversations’ with just about everyone you see, none of it we can understand of course, but your eyes tell us that you’re happy and want to know more more more! you love to look into the mirror at me, you give me the biggest smiles which render me useless for the moment. we think any day now you’re going to start giggling, i can see it – it’s just bursting to come out 😀 i’m trying desperately to capture more of your magic on video, but you are camera smart/shy and seem to stop whenever i start filming.

in the last two weeks, you’ve gone from 4.4kg’s to 5.7kg’s – i thought you might of cracked the 6kg mark by the ache of our backs lately 😉 you love your food, even more than you love the magic changetable (which seems to be a big comfort to you!).

you’ve become a big slobberpuss, often leaving lakes of saliva on the shoulders of anyone who picks you up. you’ve gone from no saliva, to holding the countries supplies of water in your mouth. (no wonder there’s a water shortage).

on december 9, our friends and family came to our home to welcome you into the family. you loved seeing everyone, seeing old friends and meeting new faces. your dad and i were so proud, we loved showing off our little bub! your grandparents, aunty hayley and i had fun organising everything – especially through the huge storm that came through our suburb. it seemed to miss our house though, as if someone knew not to rain on your day!

a week or so ago, you had your first christmas and you were SPOILED! everyone bought you a little gift, most that you’ll learn to play with over the next few months. for the whole family though, you were our gift. you truly transformed our christmas back to what it used to be like, but even better this time. to see your uncle gavin’s face light up, is an amazing feat as we hardly see him to begin with – he hasn’t spent alot of time with you yet but i can tell he’s charmed by you, like everyone else is.

you’re a beautiful little boy, Jasper. the best boy we could of ever dreamed.
we’re so happy to see in 2008 with you in our arms.

love, mumma.

Comments Off on newsletter: month two

happy new year!!!

2007 was definately my best year ever! i started the year a little rocky, with doctor’s appointments and ultrasounds. i was finally getting my head (and body) around what is going on with me and then in february i found out i was pregnant!

dec 31 2007 - end of the best year everi think i had the most fun, most enjoyment this past year because of the pregnancy – i loved every minute of it and i would do it all again in a heartbeat. especially the birth and meeting the little one, that was the most joy i’ve ever experienced! my health issues seemed to clear up too – i didn’t have migraines and i could eat dairy for the first time in ages. i felt healthier and better than ever before. it was 9 months of discovery and i know i’ll always look back and remember 2007 as life changing, sort of like therapy in a way. i would of never had guessed that we would have a beautiful baby boy 12 months ago, i guess dreams do come true when you least expect it!

being pregnant and a mum also allowed me to see Regan in a new light – he’s an amazing father, a total natural. i never have to ask him to do anything for Jasper, because he’s already doing it! seeing him this way, makes me appreciate him even more as a husband, a partner and a person. seeing Jasper’s eyes light up when his daddy is around, is indescribable. you couldn’t put a price on it.

anyway, i hope that 2008 brings everyone everything we wanted and more. you never know what is around the corner, but i hope that whatever comes your way makes you smile everyday.

happy new year everyone!

Comments Off on happy new year!!!

two shirts and a ball of lint.

i finally got around to clearing out my closet and, surprisingly, it was really sad …

starting from the drawers full of stuff that i knew i didn’t like anyway, and then going through my prized pieces, my absolute favourites – slowly one by one i tried them each on, and slowly one by one they didn’t fit.

i know it must sound so silly, but seeing each cool tshirt and every lovely dress that i’ve bought and worn with joy get thrown into the “doesn’t fit” pile broke my heart. it’s like saying goodbye to who i was before, and having to start again.

of course, i realise that i have a gorgeous baby boy to be so so thankful for (and i am!!) but with every piece of clothing that didn’t fit me, the nail was hammered further into the wood – i’ve changed and i need to find out who i am again.

now you’re probably saying “damn girl, just buy a size larger now” but it’s not that simple – i think what you wear on your outside is a reflection of who you are on the inside. so it’s a big thing when you’re forced to start again, and where do you start? each item that you get is part of your history, so like a hunter i’ll need to find the things that will become part of who i think i am. it’ll be interesting, it’ll be fun – but most of all, it’ll be me. again.

p.s. for the record – it’s my hips and my rib cage (and feet and fingers) that has expanded, so unless you know a way to shrink bone back, i’ve gone up a size. i’m totally fine with that part – i don’t think i’m fat, i think i look pretty damn good for someone who had a baby 8 weeks ago 😛 but that doesn’t change the fact that i am now bigger than before. all that seems to fit me now are a couple of shirts and shorts and that’s it.